This Past Weekend
For memorial day weekend, I went away on a church retreat. We spent the entire weekend engulfed in Bible lessons, Fellowship and fun. Josh and I were in charge of the social which is a designated slot of time during the retreat for free time. This year our theme was Hawaiian Luau. It was a last minute Idea but I tried my hardest to execute it. We had Leis, Palm trees, Josh dressed up as a hula dancer, we played games and roasted hot dogs and marshmallows over a fire pit (viewed in the picture above). It was so much fun. We even had Hawaiian music playing in the background to set the mood.
Well, I told Josh how I felt and that turned out to be a huge mistake. In fact, writing the last blog entry was a huge mistake. I pictured telling him would be somewhat magical but It blew up in my face and now I feel like a fool. I don’t think I’ll say anything else to him about it for a while. Thanks for all the encouraging comments though. I would have never had the guts to open up to him. Although it didn’t go as I thought or hoped it would, getting it off my chest felt good. I rarely have the chance to express my feelings. I almost never have them matter though. I guess that has to be worked on.
Posted By Joy @ 7:40 pm | 10 Comments »
I am not one to give relationship advice since I am not in a relationship myself. However, I believe that communication is important in a relationship. Therefore, I don’t think so it is wrong for you to tell him how you feel or opening up to him. So, maybe it is not a huge mistake after all. Josh is probably isn’t ready when it comes to a topic that is so serious like marriage and you may have scare him off a bit. But if he is the right man, he’ll be understanding. 
Ren On May 31st, 2011 @ 12:15 am
Oh no! I used to like a guy named Josh once and it was this whole complicated mess haha. Don’t feel bad! I wish I knew what happened… but don’t worry. One day you’ll look back on it and laugh it off or realize just how naive you were!
Alison On May 31st, 2011 @ 2:34 am
I remember being at a Luau themed party. It was for the last day of DAY CARE so I was just a kid. I can’t remember much of it though.
I just know one learns from mistakes in a relationship. I don’t think you should worry too much … I agree with what someone said ^ if he’s the right man he’ll be understanding.
Liv On May 31st, 2011 @ 9:15 am
Takes courage to do that, even if it didn’t turn out the way you’d hoped!
DK On May 31st, 2011 @ 10:48 am
it sounds like you had lots of fun at the retreat! minus the boy troubles, if it makes you feel any better… which it might not… last year i went through something similar with this guy i worked with named justin. he and i were friends and we flirted and all that even though he had a girlfriend, then when i finally got the courage to say something about it, he basically played it all out in his head and decided it would never work between us and we stayed friends, and then a couple months later he ends up kissing some girl that wasn’t his fiancee, and they break up and when the other girl he cheated with left he decided he wanted to try and be with me, after i had just had my heart broken by my first love.
i guess the moral of the story is, i would have NEVER met my first love, Seth, if Justin and I had ended up dating, and also I would have ended up being the one cheated on. whether this story serves any purpose to you or not, sometimes you just gotta believe things will work out the way they are supposed to!
mel On May 31st, 2011 @ 2:10 pm
I read your last blog post to get a bit of perspective, and I’m glad you told him. You should feel comfortable telling him how you feel because that’s what relationships are for.
You’re right, that’s what relationships are supposed to be for; they should be the type of thing that can eventually lead to marriage.
I’m only 15, and I already know that I want to marry my current boyfriend eventually. Definitely not anytime soon, but eventually.
Clarisse On June 1st, 2011 @ 2:28 am
I actually didn’t do anything this weekend, surprisingly. Normally we have a barbecue of some sort but we didn’t bother doing anything. It made me feel less patriotic! Haha normally when I think of church retreats, I think of people preaching down your throat; they ever really appeal to me. Nice to know you had fun though. (:
Sorry to hear that that didn’t go according to plan. Sometimes you kind of have to expect the worse. Even if he’s not ready, at least the offer and opinions are out of the water; should he decide to do it one day, like you said, you’ll be ready. That day will come soon enough, I’m sure!
Kelsey On June 1st, 2011 @ 3:08 pm
So, I just want to say that first my mom’s name is Joy, so every time I see your name I think of her xD Second, not being a creep or anything, but that’s cool that you live in philly and are going to an art school. I thought about going to an art school in philly, but it’s easier and cheaper for me to go to one I can commute to.
That church retreat sounds like a lot of fun. I love church retreats.(: And mission trips. And youth group.
Sorry it didn’t turn out how you expected =/ I’m the same way with keeping my feelings to myself. It drove my old boyfriend crazy. And maybe it wasn’t as bad as you thought? I hope it all works out in the end, for you.
Jayy On June 1st, 2011 @ 5:23 pm
It’s alright that things didn’t go as you thought it would, but you’re right you said what you had to say. At least you have an idea of where you both are in your relationship. I think that it definitely makes you a stronger individual when you can voice how you feel.
abby On June 1st, 2011 @ 6:50 pm
I read the previous entry that you linked and thought it was such a lovely and adorable little paragraph.
It’s definitely something I can relate to and I would see myself posting a similar entry like that on my blog. However, guys tend to see things differently, so I think my boyfriend would be pretty irritated had I post something like that.
I’m sorry that your s/o reacted to it negatively. It’s too bad that he can’t see the the thought behind what you’ve written.
Ugh, men…