Checking Off My List
While reading over my about page I saw my “To-do in life” list that I have long forgotten about. I felt guilty that the list was both short and abandoned. At some point, some of the items on the list were very passionate dreams/ideas of mine and apparently I felt strongly enough to pursue a handful of them and check them off. And who has fifteen items on a to-do in life list? It made me realize how simple of person I am. I’m not entirely sure yet if that’s a good or bad thing but it certainly didn’t make me feel ok. Well, until it came to my attention that in the next three months, I will get to check off at least four big items on the list. First one being to plan my wedding.
Posted by Joy on April 6, 2013 | 12 Comments »
It’s relieving that I finally have some time to sit down and relax. I’m counting down the days until my world can slow down and I can take a breather and start my new life and new adventures. Until then, I’ll have to continue to endure what is my life at the moment. Here’s a quick recap of the past few weeks.
We did our home inspection - It was a little overwhelming to hear the inspector point out all of the things he thought was wrong with the home but after some talking down and getting in touch with family members who are contractors, we were assured that everything we needed done would be taken care of. The best part it that it will be done as wedding gifts and that takes a huge load off of my shoulders.
My on going battle with insecurities - When Joshua first proposed, It was the best I ever felt about myself. He chose ME. Out of all of his past relationships, he chose me to be his wife and that made me feel good. I didn’t fret about my appearance or weight but for some reason these things are bothering me again. I think it has something to do with trying on wedding dresses and figuring out what looks fit me. I can only pray that I began to appreciate myself again because it’s making the wedding planning a nightmare.
I sold my first children’s book overseas - As I type, a copy of my book is on it’s way to Australia. I can die happy now.
I’ve decided to start my own business - Joshua and I are really old-fashioned so, when it comes to discussing children, we both agreed that I should stay home. Now, having children is not in the plan anytime soon but I constantly think about having to give up a job that I love so that I can raise my children. Especially, since I worked so hard for a chance in my profession. So, after a long talk, we concluded that I should strive to start a business of my own. That way, I can work from home and still be as involved as I want to be in our home life. I really have a lot of respect for the working mom. I don’t have children but I couldn’t see myself raising them and working full-time away from home. It’s amazing.
I chose my florist - I honestly didn’t think we would be able to afford all of our flowers but Josh’s mom got in touch with a woman she used to teach and found out that she was a florist. So, we set up a meeting and she was able to quote us for all of our wedding flowers for a HUGE discount. And she’s does amazing work.
We took a day trip to our wedding locations - We chose Milford Park Camp to hold our reception and the little church on the top of it’s hill for our ceremony. It was Josh’s dream to get married there because he’s been attending the camp twice a year since he was a newborn and we were lucky enough to rent the venue for dirt cheap. The campgrounds are incredibly scenic and green. When went this past weekend, it was enchanting and covered and snow. I can’t believe this is actually going to happen.
We’ll I have wedding things to attend to but I sincerely miss my blog and reading up on others. Hopefully, I can get back to it soon and thank you to everyone who continues to read. I truly adore you.
Posted by Joy on March 21, 2013 | 7 Comments »
Wedding, Wedding, Blah, Blah, Blah
February was so much busier than I thought it would be. We signed mortgage papers, did two pre-marital counseling sessions, attended a wedding show, chased down a $500 deposit with an old realtor, went shopping for wedding decorations and I’m pretty sure there is more to this list that I am not remembering. All I know is that I haven’t had a chance to sit down and just relax. If I am sitting, it’s to search the internet for what I need. Did I forget to mention that I now have only four months until my wedding day?! I’m going crazy. I have so much to do.
So, you’ll notice that the monthly list for March is long and the only reason why it’s not any longer is because I rationed my tasks so that I wouldn’t overload and die. We don’t really have a choice but to get this months list done. It’s not even an option. It doesn’t help at all that we JUST got a solid number for our budget. A budget that has turned my plans upside down. I have had to revamp, cut and compromise on everything I wanted. I will admit that it started to feel as if I was planning a wedding just to get it over with but this past Saturday I tried on my wedding dress and melted. I never in my life thought I would look so pretty. I just hope Joshua will agree.
This post is rather short but I’m really busy with all the wedding stuff. I hope you all will understand! I can’t wait until it’s all over and I can share it all with you!
Thanks for reading!